Vulernable

There are days that my heart is hard.  There are days that my heart is soft.  I wish I was more soft than hard.  I want to be vulnerable.

As a woman, it's not easy to openly share what's going on in my life.  I don't like ruining people's good days or making people feel like they can't share their problems after I share mine.  This leads to loneliness and a lot of hidden emotions.This is one of the biggest issues that women face.  We want to be sensitive to what others are feeling.  We love to listen to others problems without sharing our own.

My prayer the last few weeks has been to go outside of my box and share what's really on my heart.  It's also been to encourage others to share what's on their hearts.

This year, the guys on Concordia's campus have become extremely vulnerable with each other.  They thrive as a group when they share their struggles and joys and then encourage each other.  This is one of my deepest desires.

Though I have already made some big steps this week, tonight is going to be an even bigger one.  Tonight's girl's night at The Liberty could change lives; it could change my life.  I long for friendships and sisterhood with women who know and love the Lord.  That's all.  I have many great friends, but I long to know them and their hearts on a deeper level.  I know they share the same desires.

So tonight, Lord, is in your hands.  This weekend, this life, it's all Yours.  You alone have the power to soften hearts and make us more like You.  Make our desires Your desires.  Let us be open in sharing our lives.  I trust in You.  I love You.  I long for more of You.