Broken

Last week felt like complete darkness to me.  I felt like I was living in a world full of lies.  

"You can't do this by yourself."  

"You're not worthy of anything."  

"You're not smart enough to be in these classes."  

"You're not ready to become an adult."  

What always gets me is that these lies are true.  I repeat, these lies are true.  I can't live this life by myself.  I'm not worthy of a Savior's love.  I'm neither smart nor wise.  I'm not ready to become an adult.  I don't know that I'll ever be ready to become an adult.

Though these lies are true, there is a Truth that is even greater.  I can't live this life alone, but that's why God lives this life with me.  I'm not worthy of salvation or of love, but God loves me (and you) so much that He gave His life for me (and you).  I'm neither smart nor wise, but that's why I read the Bible, to gain knowledge and wisdom for living this life.  I'm not ready to become an adult, but I am ready to follow God and mature in my relationship with Him.

God changed my heart and my attitude a little bit (more like a lot) in church this morning.  River City started a series on Ecclesiastes.  Ecclesiastes basically says that everything in this world is completely meaningless.  Though this is true, it points to what is meaningful by pointing to what is meaningless.  For example, it is meaningless to be the smartest person in the world, but it is meaningful to find your identity in Jesus and to be wise in your words and actions in a way that causes you to live in a way that is more focused on Jesus and less focused on myself.