Resolutions

I can recall only two years that I did something with friends for New Year's Eve.  One was in 5th grade and the other was my senior year of high school.  Other years I was either baby sitting or hanging out with my parents at home.  I never thought it was lame with the exception of one year.  That year, a bunch of friends told me their plans for the night and did not invite me, knowing the plans I had were to sit at home with Mom and Dad...again.

This year was different.  My plans had not changed from past years.  I watched "Dick Clark's New Year's Rockin Eve" with Mom and Dad.  "What's the difference?" you ask.  "My 'resolution,'" I answer.

Each year, people set these goals to try achieving in the new year.  Most of them are about improving health by dieting, exercise, and brushing teeth.  During the month of December, I thought about what my resolution might be.  I seriously considered making my resolution something like this: "I'm going to do pilates at least 4 days every week and run/jog at least 3 days every week."  Knowing my past experience with exercising, I knew that this would be very challenging goal to achieve.  Even so, I thought it was a good resolution and that I could keep it if I maintained motivation and determination.

God's plan was different. {This tends to be a theme in my life.}

During this break from school, I have not spent time with the Lord as I initially wanted and intended.  This is a recurrence in my life that I'm not so proud of and that I don't like.  As a Christian, I should long to seek the Lord in all times, not just at school.   I opened my journal on Saturday to find that I have not written anything since break began.  This is when God slapped me in the face.

*SLAP*

My resolution is still about being healthy.  Though this resolution is not about exercise, dieting, or brushing teeth, (I do so faithfully every day.  I didn't want you to think that I didn't.), it is about being healthy in a way that matters more.  God has challenged me to make a resolution to seek Him even more than what I have previously.  Today I realized that I don't love God near as much as He loves me.  If I did, I would be spending so much more time with Him.  (I know that my human heart can not physically love God as much as He loves me, but I wish I could.)  

New Resolution

This year, I will spend more time with God.  I will be diligent and intentional with my time.  I will be more intentional in how I spend time with people.  This will require sacrifices, but, as the Bible says, all that we suffer on Earth can not begin to compare to the joy we will experience in Heaven.  That's what life is about.

{{I apologize for the extremely long post.  I think this might become a habit.}}