I haven't blogged in a very, very long time. This summer flew by. Time always seems to go faster in the summer than it does in all other seasons. Summer was a season of extreme growth for me, as a person and in my relationship with the Lord.
I feel like I went from being a 12 year old to a 21 year old this summer. I view myself as an adult instead of an incompetent college student that has a lot to learn. This is probably because I have realized that I will never arrive to a place in life where I actually know everything. Though I wish I could know everything, and I sometimes act as though I do, I never will. It is impossible to know everything. God did not create humans with the capability to know everything. Only God knows everything because He is the only One who actually needs to know everything.
Apologies for that tangent are accepted. Anyway, I view myself as a child of God. My identity is Christ and it is through Him alone that I receive authority. "Through Christ, God has given us the privilege and authority as apostles to tell Gentiles everywhere what God has done for them, so that they will believe and obey him, bringing glory to his name." Romans 1:5 I have the authority to share the Good News to all people. This authority comes through Christ.
My faith changed drastically this summer. I realized that the way to mature in faith is to become more child-like in faith. If the Bible says that God can do anything, then God can do anything. There are no ifs, ands, or buts about it. I don't have to analyze God's powers. In fact, it's quite stupid to do so. Who am I, a mere human, a part of God's creation, to question God's wondrous, unfathomable powers? God's power is amazing, clearly. All I have to do is ask and trust and He will be faithful to answer. That's all. There's nothing more to it.
My dream for this year is that Concordia will be hit hard by God. I want to see people begin and develop intimate relationships with Christ this year. I desire for students and faculty come to their knees in repentance and dedicate their lives to Christ. I trust that God will do this within the next 8 months. Call me crazy. Call me a dreamer. Or call me maybe. ;)
Anyway...As the school year begins, I find myself more and more nervous and anxious for graduation. I'm excited to be an adult and to really begin my own life. I'm also very scared for the seasons of unknown that will be part of this year and part of post-college life. As I often say, "It's always exciting and scary to trust in God." It's exciting because you get to trust that God has a plan and that the plan is better than any I could ever think of. It's scary because I don't always know, (more like I rarely know), all the details of the plan that I would like to. I wish God would just tell me what my life will be like after graduation. I wish God would just tell me many things. But if God did that, then I wouldn't ever experience the fullness of God and His many characteristics. I wouldn't ever be refined in my faith.
Because I desire God, I seek God. My times with the Lord are essential in my daily life. I have been spending more time with God than ever before. I take time out of my day multiple times a day to be with the Lord. Sometimes these times are 20 minutes. Other times are hours, literally. I'm learning so much about God and He is loving me, breaking me, and reshaping me. All are necessary and beautiful things.
I don't know how to end this post. I could forever write on what God is doing in my heart. But now you've read just a snippet of what I'm learning. You can pray for me in the following ways: more boldness, more declaration and freedom in the fruit of the Spirit, and more experiences of the Spirit in my daily life. I will be praying over you as well. God has made me to be an intercessor, so many of you come to mind throughout each 24 hour day and you are prayed over. Know that.
If you're still reading this, I applaud you. I apologize that this is so long. I haven't blogged in nearly 2 months.
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