Well Overdue

I guess I haven't blogged since April 17, which was well over a month ago.  I don't really know how to describe my life in the last 6 weeks.  It's been crazy to say the least.  With finals, traveling around Minnesota, and moving to a house in Moorhead, my life has very much so been a time of transition.  I'm learning a lot about myself, about my relationship with God, and about God Himself.

During the last two weeks of school, I spent a lot of time with my friend Alison, nearly every waking moment.  It was a great thing for many reasons.  We grew close in our friendship and encouraged each other a lot in our faith, which quickly lead to holding each other accountable for the things that God taught us.  These weeks were so wonderful.  I remember feeling so close to God and having a desire for so much more.  It was even spoken over me that I was entering a new season of intimacy with God, where I would often be found in a quiet place simply being with God.  Both of us would talk and it would be a great relationship.  I was so excited for this to start and I also knew that there would be some challenges ahead of me as summer vacation began.

After finals, I spent about a week with my grandparents in Walker.  I love my grandparents a lot.  We have a very close and special relationship that I treasure dearly.  We laughed a lot and had a great week just being with each other and visiting, and making a random, trip to Wal-Mart when Grandpa dropped the TV.....

After my visit in Walker, I spent a couple of days in Moorhead moving in to the house I'm leasing for the next year.  I then spent a week and a half in Marshall for my brother Brad's graduation and to just be with my family for a while before summer got too crazy busy.

In Marshall, I learned a few more things. 1) I don't prioritize God nearly enough in my life.  And though I never will, there's no reason for me to not try. 2) My relationship with God requires that I spend time alone with Him. It's great to be with people, but I need to be more intentional in withdrawing myself to be with God. 3) Though I don't always listen for it, God's voice is always talking. Though I don't always feel it, God's presence is everywhere.

So what's next? Well, I start my nanny job on Wednesday and I am super excited about it! I'm really excited to start having a real routine. I'm also really excited to get to know the family I'm nannying for more.  They are really great and I know that this will be a fantastic experience with them!

I'm also very ready to start to really dig in to my relationship with God. I'm ready to take time to read the Bible, pray, and listen for hours at a time if that's what God leads me to do. I'm ready to fulfill my role as the King's daughter and to become more attuned to the Spirit's voice in my daily life.  These are things that I desire very deeply.  The only thing holding me back is myself.  So I'm learning to let God break down the wall I have built up against Him and to let Him in more of my heart.